After almost 5 years of writing here, these are the posts that make me cringe. I worry that when I write about myself (or Dana and I) that we come across as self-absorbed, overly promotional and altogether awkward. It actually feels more comfortable to write about the recipes that we’re experimenting with than it does to write about the one thing we know better than anything else: us.
At the same time, it’s almost 11:00PM and this is the first chance I’ve had to sit down and write today. I’m afraid that my moments of brilliance (and any chance of shooting a decent photo) expired some time before 9:00PM! Therefore, sharing yet another update on the upcoming TEDxToronto speech makes sense from a few angles:
- It is the biggest thing happening in our life right now.
- It’s occupying most waking moments that aren’t occupied by work.
- We hope it might be interesting.
- I’ve learned that these little notes are a lot of fun for me to read a few years after writing them.
So what’s been going on? Here’s some of the highlights:
- As shared previously, I threw out my first 10 weeks of work and replaced it with a speech written in last than 2 hours. The decision was difficult but I feel, with all of my heart, that it was the right call.
- I had a 3-hour coaching session on Sunday night. It was the first time I shared my speech with one of my coaches.
- I am thrilled to share that Andrea (my coach), is happy with the results! I did 4 dry-runs and we edited a considerable amount.
- I’m still not 100% confident with the final 30 seconds of the speech. I’m hoping that a new ending will find me soon; and, yes, that makes me a little bit nervous.
- The next step is memorizing the 12 minute speech. I’ve never done anything like this before and it scares that crap out of me! I know I’ll get it done but really don’t know how. I plan to record the speech in the next 24 hours and listed to it repeatedly in my 2+ hours of daily commuting!
- There’s a practice run next Wednesday. I’ve just realized that I have to memorize the speech before then; and that’s just over a week away!
- I’ve had more feedback on my ability as a public speaker in the last 6 weeks than I have had in 20 years. It’s forced me to change my approach to presenting. It’s been scary at times and I’ve felt more vulnerable than I remember feeling in a long time – but I’m confident that will make a better speech by next Thursday.
- I’m feeling less nervous than I was a month ago. I’ve been really focused on imagining the last 5 seconds of the speech and how it will feel and it’s helping me feel more and more comfortable.
What would you do to prepare?